Yesterday, we went to the horse track with some friends. The day was fantastic and we had a great time, until… we didn't.
There is a brick at Del Mar that is dedicated to my son, Leo, and my grandfather, Leo. It is always nice to see this brick and I appreciate that we were able to honor my son and grandfather at such a beautiful place.
Unfortunately, after several drinks, my emotions got the better of me. I returned to the brick and began to cry. People came up to me to see if I was ok. This gave me the chance to share my story, which made me even more emotional.
I got to the point where my emotions (and the drinks) really got to me. I ended up ruining our evening, which I take full responsibility for.
4 1/2 years after the death of my baby boy and I still run into emotional land mines. I miss him sooooooo much. I have got to find healthier ways to deal with this pain, other than drinking. My son's memory deserves better, my daughters deserve better, my wife deserves better, my family deserves better.